All that I have is here with me, within me. But still, despair has set in, and I feel I cannot deny it anymore. And I'm afraid I might do something I'd very well regret.
This crap, I'm going to swallow it down and digest it. Bahala na.
posted by Karl @ 11:06 AM
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No matter how hard you try, even if you can think you can guarantee sleeping in late, and having dreamless peaceful sleep, when nightmares come you'll always be awake.
I hate when you try to be ok with something, and then seemingly you make progress. You feel a bit happier, smile a bit brighter. But in reality it's just like a toothpaste tube that's been capped shut. You can mush it and poke it and prod it and the contents don't come out, but if you squeeze with just the right pressure it will ooze out any which way. Maybe not even through the cap.
Which happened to be the same for me. I thought that things were going to be ok, and that they seemed to be ok. But my dilemma seems to have found another venue to present itself. And it sucks 'cause I thought I was already on the road to recovery.
And now, I'm trying to fight being angry. Angry because nothing will ever be the same, no matter how I try.
posted by Karl @ 9:07 AM
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On a happy note, I bought myself some new shoes :)
Don't they look happy?
More on my shoes here.
posted by Karl @ 6:17 PM
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I love the lyrics and how they fit so well into the melody, and I love how the melody complements the lyrics' mood. This is my current favorite :)
Nothing Lasts Forever - Maroon 5
It is so easy to see
Dysfunction between you and me
We must free up these tired souls
Before the sadness kills us both
I tried and tried to let you know
I love you but I'm letting go
It may not last but I don't know
Just don't know
If you don't know
Then you can't care
And you show up
But you're not there
But I'm waiting
And you want to
Still afraid that I will desert you
Everyday
With every worthless word we get more far away
The distance between us makes it so hard to stay
But nothing lasts forever, but be honest babe
It hurts but it may be the only way
A bed that's warm with memories
Can heal us temporarily
The misbehaving only makes
The ditch between us so damn deep
Built a wall around my heart
I’ll never let it fall apart
But strangely I wish secretly
It would fall down while I'm asleep
If you don't know
Then you can't care
And you show up
But you're not there
But I'm waiting
And you want to
Still afraid that I will desert you, babe
Everyday
With every worthless word we get more far away
The distance between us makes it so hard to stay
But nothing lasts forever, but be honest babe
It hurts but it may be the only way
Tough we have not hit the ground
It doesn't mean we're not still falling,
Oh I want so bad to pick you up
But you're still too reluctant to accept my help
What a shame, I hope you find somewhere to place the blame
But until then the fact remains
Everyday
With every worthless word we get more far away
The distance between us makes you so hard to stay
Nothing lasts forever, but be honest babe
It hurts but it may be the only way
Everyday
With every worthless word we get more far away
The distance between us makes it so hard to stay
But nothing lasts forever, but be honest babe
It hurts but it may be the only way
posted by Karl @ 1:53 PM
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I ripped this entry from someones blog, and I really like the way it presents simple realities in life and relationships.
As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that
wasn't supposed to ever let you down probably will.
You will have your heart broken probably more than once and
it's harder every time.
You'll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken.
You'll blame a new love for things an old one did.
You'll cry because time is passing too fast, and you'll eventually lose someone you love.
So take too many pictures, laugh too much, and love like you've never
been hurt because every sixty seconds you spend upset
is a minute of happiness you'll never get back.
Don't be afraid that your life will end, be afraid that it will never
begin.
posted by Karl @ 1:28 PM
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