Because I can't sleep, I'm reposting some of my blog entries from my other page....
I like women.
I like being with them.
I like talking, sharing, and communicating with them.
I like it how each one is different in so many ways. I like it when they laugh, I like it when they try to be annoyingly cute. Well, I think I'd settle for cute and not annoying. I like women who have their own set of principles. I like it when they know what they like and what they don't... and aren't afraid to voice them out. As long as they aren't rude.
I like women who can look me in the eye and and speak their minds. I like women who aren't afraid to be happy. I like women who are sophisticated yet uncomplicated.
I like women who smell really nice.
I like women who know how beautiful they are in spite of their flaws.
I like women.
But sometimes I feel that I like them a little too much...
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I like fast cars. I like shiny big fast cars. And convertibles. And 4x4 trucks.
I almost like cars more than women.
I think.
May 16, 2003. 1:25 am
Love is overrated
...or at least misunderstood. Some people do not get the fact that loving someone doesn't necessarilly mean that you're in love. And love isn't all just happy times like long walks on the beach or dancing on a moonlit balcony while the string orchestra plays below. It isn't all flowers and movies and chocolates and anniversaries. Love is more than that. Love is the unspoken connection that binds the two of you in a dance that only the two of you can understand. Love is waiting for two hours without getting pissed off. Love means you worry about the two hour delay. Love is trying to balance what's right with what you actually want.
I hope you decide what you want soon. And realize that you do not love me. You just miss me and my friends. You have your life to take care of, go, they need you more than you need me. If you read this you'll know who you are, for all the other people, I'm sorry you can't understand this. I'm your friend and I won't let you waste what you've worked so hard for over one unreasonable and irrational fixation or hangup or obsession or whatever it is. I refuse to contribute to your downfall.
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you have a problem with intimacy...
I do...? I guess I do...
Do I?
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It just seems that these days it just gets harder and harder to decide whom to trust, women included. For a few days now, this girl has been sending off mixed signals... why can't she just come out with it and not play games? It's not like I'm going to pounce on her or douse her with disinfectant.. Attraction is one of the most natural and simple things... but why do we keep choosing to complicate it? To make it more interesting? I can make it more interesting if you tell me you like me... To control the flow of events? There are only two journeys and destinations, to be or not to be. Why control something better left as spontaneous... To keep ones' respect and dignity? I don't think I'd respect someone less if she told me she liked me...
I'd like to trust more and love more but sometimes I feel like there's always an ambush somewhere.
So yeah, I do have a problem with intimacy. Intimacy stemming from distrust.
June 13, 2003. 12:08 pm
Sexual Revolution
Feminism male chauvinism sexism sexual communism...
Equality libido sexual roles machismo...
Breadwinner ballbreaker head of the table whatever...
Damsel in distress stereotypes stress...
Sexual roles and stereotypes are reversing and melting into each other as the boundaries between are disappearing.
Is it just me or are men really looking for more commitment nowadays and women choosing to stay single longer. And why is it that as time passes men are becoming more and more emotional as compared to women... progression or regression, which is which and who is who? In my family my mother is the stronger personality, my father the caring and showy side. Most of my friends aren't exactly the player types, and at least three or four of us have been given the runaround by a girl or two. So what's happening really? A friend of mine once said that over time men will be reduced to just a reproductive commodity and nothing else. I seem to be meeting more women who do not have real plans of settling down, maybe just living together.
That is if they decide that men are worth the try.
Most just opt to play around.
I've had potential relationships that have just faded into nothingness. A month or two together, fooling around but not really taking each other seriously. Sharing lives, sharing secrets and dreams. Making out and making up. But not really moving forward.
If you consider commitment as moving forward.
As of now I don't even know if I want to be in a relationship... there are the occassional dates and occassional... somethings... I'm just taking things as they come my way. But not everything (lest you think that I'm a sponge) though.
Maybe I don't want to commit. Maybe I don't want the complications and responsibilities of a relationship. I'd rather stay single and play the field than have some shitty relationship with some shitty person with shitty values and thinks I'm full of shit. But I do admit that sometimes it would be nice to have something in life that's 'sure'
On the other hand, it is nice to stay single and live a life free from the complexities of another person.
Anyway...
Sexual roles are reversing and stereotypes are melting into each other. We are at the forefront of a sexual revolution that has long been overdue in Philippine culture. Men are getting in touch with their emotional sides and women are learning to stand up for themselves and get what they want. Women are now more free (to what extent I'm not so sure) to do what they want with their lives. More men are understanding that their egos don't have to be right all the time.
The world is changing and so are we.
Actually, I find it interesting... but right now I think I'll just sit back and watch from the comfort of a lounge chair and bottle of Tequilla... away from the melting pot.
May 19, 2003. 10:45 pm
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Don't ask me why I reposted, I just felt like it.
Maybe I just felt nostalgic. Or felt wonder at how different some things are now.
posted by Karl @ 3:32 AM
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