I have been told by more than two people who have read my blog that I am different in person than the one online.
The thought scares me.
The thought that I have an alter-ego scares me. And the thought that I could be schitzo scares me even more. I don't want to end up as some nut job in a straightjacket. Or worse, living in an apartment alone, afraid of human contact. I want to be normal.
But then again, what is normal?
Forget it.
It just means that after years of trying to unlearn all that trash I picked up from life I have not yet succeeded.
Damn! I just want to be true to myself and be myself!
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We have another kitten.
But this guy's adorable. And he doesn't keep biting off my toes. My brother found the poor guy in our garage (someone must have thrown him in). Although he does get annoying sometimes, I still like him. His annoyance level is very tolerable, and he can play on his own without bothering me. Sometimes he climbs up my leg but that's ok, he's probably just hungry. I have scratches on my arms from playing with him (and from Lilo) but it's still okay, I did enjoy myself too.
Even if this one's staying I don't want to get attached.
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I have this week-long headache. My ex is on the blink again.
She's been calling everyday twice or thrice.
I can't hack it.
posted by Karl @ 8:12 PM
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