Aspirin

3 am and my nerves are still up and firing away. Just like last night.

Seriously, I have got to get my pace (?) back. Andami ko nang naiwan na trabaho. It would be safe to say my colleauges aren't quite happy with me, after all, I'm not. I just got my TIN and CTC, so now I can legitimately gripe at the government for being so inefficient and stupid. Hehe.

Haaay nako... pakiramdam ko ang tamad-tamad ko... ayoko magtrabaho. Gusto ko matulog. At mag-download. Pero alam ko hindi pwede, kailangan gumawa ng pera.

Hmm. Pera. Yun lang ba ang dahilan kung bakit ako nasa mundo? Kaligayahan? O may pakinabang akong mahiwaga't ma... significant. E ano ba talaga? Basta alam ko ngayong araw na 'to may hinangad ako para sa kinabukasan, sana matuloy.

Yun ay: 500,000 jobs.

Ok ba?


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I'm sitting here dreaming up schemes and plans, but I've fallen into that same hole I keep falling into over and over again.

That hole called being overwhelmed.

Ayoko na sa butas na 'to. Mabaho, madilim. Higit sa lahat, malaking abala. Madaling lumabas, pero madaling malaglagan din. Bwiset.

What to do, what to do...

...sige na nga, matutulog nalang ako.


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posted by Karl @ 3:04 AM